“Letting go gives us freedom, and freedom is the only condition for happiness. If, in our heart, we still cling to anything – anger, anxiety, or possessions – we cannot be free.”
Thích Nhat Hanh, The Heart of the Buddha’s Teaching: Transforming Suffering into Peace, Joy, and Liberation
I’ve been wallowing in my midlife
crisis progression, rolling in it and repeatedly banging my head against it. It feels kind of like when the kids were little and I found myself in that rare magical moment where you had an hour to yourself, uninterrupted. It’s so rare that you end up walking around the house in circles trying to figure out something to do, something just for you, something you love. Read a book, take a shower, dye your hair, paint your nails. But you don’t, you spend too much time trying to decide what to do and while you are trying to decide you put a load of laundry in, put the dishes away, brush the dog. Then, suddenly the hour has passed.
The midlife transition is much the same. What do you do? Take a class? Change careers? Sell all your belongings and move to Tai Pei?
I have no clue.
I’ve recently taken to reading Thich Nhat Hanh, Brene Brown, Gloria Steinem, Barbara Sher. I think I’m attempting to have the aha moment where it will be so clear that I know what I should be doing. So far, nothing. I have also recently read Slaughterhouse Five – Kurt Vonnegut, am presently reading The Alchemist- Paulo Coelho and have Jack Kerouac, On The Road on my nightstand. So far I haven’t had any epiphanies, but I have added the term SO IT GOES to my vocabulary.